Where has my motivation gone?

Damned if I know.

I need to lose about 100 lbs. I know all the steps and how to do them. Except the part about actually doing them.

Eat fewer calories, eat more nutritionally dense foods.

Move my fat body more to burn more calories and get my muscles in better shape.

Pretty simple right?

Super simple, easy enough that my 10 year old could do it.

But I do nothing, or even worse eat calorie dense foods with little or no nutritional value.

I have not been trying very hard to lose weight of get healthy lately.

In 6 days I change the first digit of my age for the 5th time.

It feels like it should be important buy I find myself not really caring much.

My creative pursuits are having the same issues as my weight loss. I do very little and have been moving very slowly with projects that are well past when the people I am working with should have kicked me to the curb. They have not and that give me hope. They are being tremendously understanding and patient.

I really need to figure out what the hell is going on and likely seek some professional assistance if moving forward on the mental front.

Wow the urge to blot out that admission is very strong…

Be Well!




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