Many changes since the last post. I’ve shipped 2 children off who joined the military. One is training to be a jet engine mechanic in the Air Force and the other will be training to be a computer and network specialist in the Army National Guard. So a bit of empty nest going on at the moment. I’ve attended both of the conventions that I had planned to attend and met some wonderful people at both. I’ve managed to allow imposter syndrome / performance anxiety stop me from doing the audio work that I love.
Wow tons of things.
I’ve started exercising again so I can get more healthy. I’m using numerous tools to head for this goal. The new tool is having friends who are working for the same thing all pulling together is helping me quite a bit.
I’ve just restarted working on the audio projects that have been languishing.
There are a couple of writing projects that have shown up on the horizon but I need to time to figure them out more before approaching them.
I took a voice over class at a local studio. Real studio environment caused the performance foo to kick up but I got through it. The final email from the instructor was very encouraging. As with all my pursuits I need to step up and do the things that I know I need to do to move forward.
The weight is still being a thing with total calories and portion control being the evil which I need to overcome.
For all the things going on there are good days and there are bad days. I need to keep working on having more good days if I want to get healthy. The alternative is rather definitively terminal. To that end I’ve set up an appointment with a medical professional for the first time in way too long. If I don’t know exactly what is going on with me then I can not properly address it and safely get healthy.
All for not.
Nope no at all. Great ideas all of them but not working out the way I had envisioned them to.
All the plans of mice and men come to nought without engagement and follow through.
I had a grand time creating the plans and making the lists but when it came down to it I have not followed through on them at all.
Almost no exercise, my diet is a joke.
Again I could make all the excuses in the world but I am not doing the things that I need to do for my physical and mental health.
When the mental is good I do the physical so I need to do my meditation and watch the foods that exacerbate the mental things and consume then things that will lessen them. Deliberately not going into details here because ‘reasons’.
On another note I have been getting creative work done. WOO!!
I’ve completed roles for 2 audio drama podcasts (1 live now 1 in development). I’ve also completed some sound design things and am working hard on a couple others (sorry nothing publicly available at the moment)
I know most of the things I need to do.
I don’t do them most of the time.
ADD and stress have been playing a role in this for the past several years.
As I get more stressed the more my ADD presents. This causes me to feel more stress. Nothing like a nice self-perpetuating cycle of woe to make things difficult.
So I need to just do it. Granted I’ve been saying that for quite a while now.
I have a plan.
I made 3 task lists:
- Daily tasks : This one stays the same for the most part. It contains things like my exercise and water intake.
- Work : This one changes each work day and has the items that I plan to complete for my day job each day.
- Personal : This one has my um… personal daily tasks / goals on it and can change daily as well.
I am limited to 5 tasks on each list, this is to keep myself from overloading my tasks and creating more stress. I can and likely will do items that are not on the lists but the list items are the most important ones.
I have 6 colors for each list:
- Purple : All tasks on the list are complete
- Green : 4 items on the list are complete
- Blue : 3 items on the list are complete
- Yellow : 2 items on the list are complete
- Orange : 1 items on the list are complete
- Red : No items on the list are complete
I exercise daily. I am creative in some way every day. I meditate every day.
I’m not going to go into the details of all the tasks since that would make posting about it much more daunting.
I have my lists all set for tomorrow.
So the accountability wagon is not playing nice with me.
I keep falling the heck off.
So this weekend I’m going to delineate my goals for the next few months.
Once I have that done I’ll be able to better have an idea of where I want to go as well as a plan on moving in that direction.
One of the things that I have set out to do is to do more work with audio production. Which I have had the piece I worked on go live today so I am moving in the right direction.
We had a function that we went to all day so I only got in the typing practice. Back on the wagon tomorrow. 🙂
Read one chapter in marketing book: Another chapter consumed
Track Calories: Tracked the fuel intake and had a 400 cal restriction.
Walk 30 minutes: Got that out of the way right after work.
Meditate 5 minutes: Hey I did this while ‘resting’ from the walking.
Practice typing for 15 minutes: Worked on this. Have to pay more attention to not paying attention to typing if I want to improve.
Work on unfinished Audio Drama Project: Yeah about this one… the evening sort of got away from me tonight so it’s a fail on this task
Read one chapter in marketing book: I did this. If I want to transition into a lifestyle where my creativity pays the bills I NEED to learn the principles and how to apply them.
Track Calories: I tracked them all and resisted junk food again. I need to lose about 100lb to leave obesity behind. Diet will play a large part in that.
Lift weights: I started a 5×5 free weight program. My goal with the weight lifting is to hit 3 benchmarks. 250 lb bench press. 350 lb squat. 450 lb dead lift.
Meditate 5 minutes: I used the 5 minute mindfulness bell again.
Practice typing 15 minutes: According to the software I am using I have learned all the keys (not counting numbers and symbols) in just 2 days. About 35 wpm with < 5% error rate at the moment. The goal is 50 wpm.
Work on unfinished Audio projects: I put in about 45 minutes on my project. I have the main levels done and most of the SFX. This one should be ready to put to bed in a day or two. Then on to the next thing.